Here are my thoughts. I will try to write someone if anything about everyone who is on my mind. It may all be good or bad or both. These are my thoughts if you don't like them then don't think anything of it. I am willing to talk with any one who wants to talk about my thoughts. Also there is a warning that no everything in here will make sense to everyone! and some of it you may think childish but it needs to be said and so here it is!

It does not mean I don't like you if you are at the end of the list. I just write about people as they come to my head.

Katilin: Soul Twin! You have helped me though hell and back and I have done the same for you. You may be younger in age but mature wise you are about the same age as me or older. You look at things from both sides and try not to get into things but sometimes people bring you in! I'm sorry about that because you shouldn't be brought into things. But, you are always there for me when I need a listening year. You and a couple of other people can do that for me. I love you soul twin!

Sean: You have been there for me it a lot of ways. I know I can call you and you will listen to me as long as I may need or as long as you can. I know we have talked a couple times about something that everyone tells us we need to do. But, I am fine being friends because I don't like akward moments. But, we have fun and that is all I want! Thank you so much and let me know if I call to much or cry to you to much. LOL edit: Being able to call you at like 1 in the morning when we need to act like we are on the phone at Meijers. And I am talking about me and Kaitlin calling you.

Tricia: I love you bff. To me you are still my best friend. I don't know what I am to you right now. But, I don't like to fight. But, I just don't understand you at times. We are fine one second and then I turn around and it seems like you are trying to stab me in the back. Not all the times but some times. And you complain about people and how you don't want to have anything to do with them. But, then a day later you are just fine with that person. I don't get it but maybe I never will. Allso this is going to sound childish but I was wondering why everyone here and from home are on your top friends but I am not even on there. I know it sounds stupid but come on! Well childish moment over. We need to talk and figure things out. And not around anyone else. And no everyone in the world need to know about things.
 
Kelly: You are someone I met the first night here and we had so much fun that first night. And we were fine for a while. At one point in time I just felt like you didn't like me anymore. I didn't get it and you wouldn't talk to me and also I had to hear from Tricia why you were mad at me and that you would talk about Sean. I was just wondering if we do have anything wrong. I would love to talk. But, it seems like you are fine now! So I love you!

Marissa: I really have nothing to say to you. I don't know what happened to us being friends but I don't care at the moment. All you cause is drama and I don't like it. You say you are more mature then I will ever be and I just think that you are acting like a 5 year old. So bye!

Erika: I love you and we will have so much fun during our four years of college and moving to Cali after we graduate! EDIT: We fight or tell each other what we think and then we are fine the next minute. I know I can go to you with anything I need to talk about and you will be there to listen. I love you Ice Cream. And we will have to go to Texas for a summer and bring some peoples with us so we are not lonly.

Stephanie: I love you and all of our random shit we do! Thanks hun! And NO FEISTA's!!! EDIT: You have been there for me a lot during different things. I remeber during the musical we wanted to kill each other but one of us would give the other something with caffine or sugar and we would be fine. We will ahve a great friendship as we grow up. And New Years should be fun too!!

It's KK here, sorry I have not writen a lot lately, but a lot of
things have been happening. This past week has been a rollercoster
ride of emotions. I think I have cried enough for atleast a month or
more. Don't get me wrong, i do cry, but i hate feeling weak. It hurts
to know that I have to rely on someone else to feel better. I just
hate it! I mean I love talking to people, but when I cry infront of
people, I just feel that they have pity for me and I dont want that.

So since the 30th i have had some more things happen. Well, something
happened where i got an email from some random girl, saying that my
older step sister is talking about me behind my back and all. At first
i cried, just because i really did not  know what to thing or how to
take it. But I talking to one of my other step sister and she told my
dad and my older step sister called me. She told me it was her ex and
his new girlfriend and they were just trying to get everyone to hate
her. I really liked that she called me and told me she was sorry this
happened, and that she loved me. So that made it better.

And then friday went good, I went out to dinner with my bro and papa.
But I was really snippy, and just not really feeling all that great.
Sat and sunday was ok, until sunday night. I dont really want to go
into a lot of detail, but lets just say i had a friend who I thought
was going to kill her self, because of her family. I cried because I
felt bad for her, and did not want her to do anything to harm herself.
So today I went to my councler and she told me that i did the right
thing. I really did not want to see her harm herself. I had a
friend(7th grade) who told me I was the only reason, she did not kill
her self. It is hard for someone to live with that. And with that
friend I did not do anything, and thank god, she did nothing and got
out of the house that she hated so much. But, if she did kill her
self, I dont think i could live with myself then.

But, I promise I will never try to kill myself.

Other then that today went well. But, in my expos writing class we had
to read an article about a dad who pushed his kid to far, and it went
from just being the dad who pushed for more sports, and then to a
strict diet, and at one point beating. The kid could not take it
anymore and went to get the family gun, at first I though he was going
to kill himself, but then he shot his dad twice. He got 3 years in
prison, and after 2 years patrol, be he was out with him 15 months. I
think it as right what he got, I mean he had no other choice, his
mother could not help and everyone thought  nothing was wrong. So, we
were talking about it, and I kept thinking about my firend. I really
did not like listening to it, so i put my hood up and just looked at
my hands, or the ground.

Well, I am off to go write more, and take my contacts out.

Oh.....I forgot, I decided to become a Vegetarian. It has onyl been a
day, but I feel better, and I am eating less. So it is all good. But,
I am trying it for 30 days and also for the 30 days, I am giving up
sodas, energy drinks, chips, some sweets, and I will only have chesse
pizza twice a month, unless I have to.

And i got my hair cut. I got it boy short in the back and bangs and it
is short..just all around short.

Well, I am out!
Love Ya,
Kay Kay

Words of wisdom: Frank Lloyd Wright:
                           Tip the world over on its side and
everything loose will land in Los Angeles.

1. Screamed
2. Danced
3. Sang
4. Watched Panic!
5. Kissed a girl (ask and I will tell)
6. Wrote more of my stories
7. Talked to friends
8. Got another present
9. Gave brother christmas presents
10. Got tons of ITunes songs
11. Bought books on line
12. Been on the computer